Monday

Well, it's Monday night and tomorrow it's back to work after being off since Thursday. These five days have gone so fast. I enjoyed the days off of course. I really wish I didn't have to work at times. Ok...so I'm just plain sick of working. For the longest time, I've been the one in the marriage with the 'time on job', carried the benefits for the family, etc. I'm really quite ready to kick back and take it easy for a while. When the big M went through cut backs a while ago, I started to think that I might not be all that upset if they chose to let me go. Of course, I say that now, but I probably would've been disappointed had it happened. I don't know. I'm supposed to start a new job tomorrow. Well, I'm doing much of the same thing, I'm just going salaried and working for a different boss. My responsibility will increase as time goes on I'm sure. I'm not sure how I feel about the change. I've never been salaried so not punching a clock will certainly be a change of pace. Ideally, I'd like to find something that I can do from home and on my own time. Someday...

Energize

I just wanted to point out a link I added to this blog. It's to a page where you can order XS energy drinks. There's other stuff out there as well, but these drinks are pretty darn good for an energy drink. They have 0 carbs and are loaded with B vitamins. There are a few flavors to choose from. They're sold in a 12 pack and price wise are no more expensive than other energy drinks on the market. I just think they taste so much better. I also hear they make good mixers for alcholic beverages!

Happy Belated Birthday

to me!!! Yesterday was my birthday and I don't care how old I'm getting, I still enjoy my birthday. I happen to be 36 now. For my birthday, I got a bird bath for the front yard.. isn't it cute! Yes... I did take a picture of it!

Two days ago, my hubby and I celebrated our wedding anniversary. It's been 16 years now! And, I couldn't be happier. With the bumps we've dealt with I am very proud to say we've been together that long. Yes, like many couples, we've had our problems. I blame both of us, but probably the girl he affaired with the most. She wasn't happy in her marriage and I believe she was out to find someone...anyone. Because I was suffering depression of my own, my marriage wasn't the strongest at the time and my husband had turned 40 and was going through some midlife thing or something. Although my heart was broken and I was very angry... I was still determined and hopeful that things would work out. I prayed and prayed...and it paid off. My husband got his smarts back. Came back to us and asked forgiveness. I'm a strong believer of the vows I took so of course I forgave. Also talked with a counselor to deal with my issues of depression too, because that did not help. I'm very happy to say we worked through that issue. We are still happy and strong today. By the way, our wedding anniversary gift to each other was a very nice stainless steel grill.

Am I Good or Bad?

I saw this on Skittles blog so I thought I'd try it.. I'm not surprised. I've always been a bit of a goodie goodie. I attribute that to a BIG fear of my father.

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Puppy Update

We finally sold the last two puppies. And, now we are taking a break from all that.

Lymphedema

Has anyone ever heard of this? This is what my mom had in her left leg. Her leg was absolutely huge and prevented her from walking for the most part. In addition to her calf being extremely large, she had a growth on the back of her knee. I never really saw what this looked like on her because she always had it covered. I do know that the lower part of both legs were dark purple in color. Because she didn't walk, she didn't have good circulation. She suffered complications of diabetes (although she never admitted that to me). She had high blood pressure (very high). She weighed over 500 lbs. Her left leg was probably a good 80 lbs. of that weight. Because of her extreme obesity, she was unable to have surgery to remove the growth or surgery to help with weightloss. She spent much of the last 3 years of her life in and out of the hospital and nursing homes. She was only 56 when she passed away. I always figured there wasn't much help for her. Well, last night I watched a special on the Learning Channel. I can't remember what it was called, but it was the story of 3 different super obese individuals who were being cared for at a place in New York called Brookhaven Rehab. One man was only in his 30's, was well over 400 lbs. and he too had lymphedema in the left leg. His leg, however, was completely black. He could still walk though...The people at this center were all considered super obese...the lightest being over 400 lbs. I couldn't believe how closely these people's issues were to my own mom's. I only wish i would've known about those type of places when she was still alive. However, I'm not sure it would've worked well for my mom. I think you still have to find that spark within you to have weightloss be successful. She was the type that felt sorry for herself. I think she had a lot of depression, but she didn't keep counseling appts. I wonder if seeing this show is more fuel for my own weightloss fire. As much as I have been through and as bad as I think I've had it at times... it doesn't compare to some of the stories I saw. I need to be positive about this. I need to wake up each morning, look in the mirror and say to myself in the most positive tone... I CAN DO THIS. And, not only that... I AM WORTH THE EFFORT! I have to not only say it, but I have to believe it. I know, this is a pretty long post, but this has been stirrin' around in my mind all day.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there. Today is dedicated to all of us. I compiled the photo show below as a gift to my mother who passed away February 2006. I thought this would be difficult to get through without crying, however, it's proven to be more healing and comforting. To those who knew her, I hope you enjoy. P.S. I'm not an expert at this stuff.

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What a Surprise!

How can this be? I'm on meds and I'm still burned out. No wonder why I can barely get through the day at work. Today was another of those days. I swear I'm allergic or something. Every morning, I dread going. I'm sluggish all day and don't usually perk up until I get to leave. I guess 18 years in a place will do that... combined with going on 36! Add to that... I'm overweight and depressed. Doesn't make for a very happy combination. Lose weight they say... easier said than done I say. Eat less...yeah whatever. I eat so much less than my thin counter parts..it's quite frustrating. They don't exercise either. Can someone just inject me with some metabolism...or maybe you just need to grab a cattle prod :)

You Are 84% Burned Out

You are extremely burned out. You work too hard, and you're not getting the results you deserve. It's time for a life change, as soon as you can manage it. You're giving away most of your energy to something you don't even enjoy.

Are You Burned Out?

Too funny! Considering I Hate Beer

You Are Beer!

You don't need to get totally wasted when you hit the bars.More of a social drinker, you just like to have fun with your friends.And as long as the beer keeps flowing, you're a happy camper.But don't mix things up: "Beer Before Liquor, Never Been Sicker!"

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

I'm....Not an Artist!

What My Drawing Says About Me:
You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously.
When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.
You have a peaceful mind, viewing the world with calm and serenity.
To you, life is not about struggle and strife but about existence and co-existence.
You are creative, mentally active and industrious.
You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.

I'm certainly not an artist, but that was fun...
What does your drawing say about YOU?

Check out my Cute Puppies!

Check out my puppies! Only $275 each! Cute and cuddly and love to play! Awww... come on - you know you want one. They are now 9 weeks old. Both are males. The darker one below is pretty affectionate. I call him kissy face because he loves to give you kisses.